Tiny Mustard Seed Faith
It is usually found when we come to the end of our own ego.
When I attempt to get God to prove himself, at the same time, I put myself as judge over the Almighty. This can never work to my satisfaction. But not testing God still leaves my unbelief in place. So, how can I ever come to finding this God others speak so highly of?
Once I came to the realization that my own life under my control was a complete mess and that every other explanation as to how life actually works was a fraud, I was left with one of two choices. I could change the subject and pretend that nothing is real, true, or worth wasting the little time I had left in this world (relatively speaking) in order to pursue my own pleasures, or I could ASK for help.
You see, it’s very different asking for help over demanding answers and proofs. It’s a different frame of mind; a better attitude. For one thing it admits my own reality. I may not have known anything about the existence of God, but I knew a whole lot about my own, and that alone, at least for me, was enough to get me to admit I was in no position to scoff. Perhaps those strange Christians, who appeared to be living on a happier, more joyous and free level than I was at the time, were onto something. That small step of faith opened up a new path I was unable to see before. This was the beginning of my spiritual journey.
And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.
Hebrews 11:6 (ESV)
For truly, I [Jesus] say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”
Matthew 17:20b (ESV)
Best not to knock simple beginnings. We cannot know where they will lead. The journey of faith is a life-long process always containing plenty of doubts and struggles along the way.