Intimacy with God

Do I have it? Don’t I have it? I’m told I need it.

All I know is that intimacy is closeness.

If people are intimate with one another it means they will be close and vulnerable to one another.

The risk of intimacy is pain.

With God I acknowledge that he is near me and even in me and I am completely vulnerable even when I’m unaware.

I have to be unaware at times in order to operate in this world.

Rather than intimacy, which is a given for all who have opened their lives to the spark of life that sets them on his path, I think I need thirst.

I need hunger.

I need struggles.

I need mystery and confusion.

I need to serve others.

I need quiet after noisy times.

In all of this God is able to make himself known.

I don’t know how he does it, only that he does, and that it is very personal and very intimate.